Leap year…go figure!
Cami would have been 25 years old today if she had not made the decision to end her life on April 8, 2011. Hardest event of my entire life and all her family, including her husband Robert whom she loved dearly. My Savior cried with us that day, and again today. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to have had her as my child for a mere 21 years. She was born laughing, and always handled hard things with a touch of dark humor. As she grew older many health challenges plagued her, mostly tummy aches that today I believe was a gluten intolerance and the need for real food. Add to the health challenges, a sad spirit that longed for perfection but had no idea where to start.
I tried to attach the song by Mindy Gledhill called ‘Long Lost Child’ but failed. This beautiful song always reminds me of Cami and her challenges. I love her so, and miss her so much today. We went to her headstone at the cemetery and put a fresh bouquet of red roses surrounded by white daisies. When the Resurrection flowers are ready, I will divide the bulbs and plant some at her headstone.
Beautifully wild, long lost child.
Today I will spend the rest of the day painting and hopefully finishing another image of the Resurrection flowers that always seem to poke their heads out of the ground and bloom on her birthday.
Eternal Oils ~ by Jane 
Thanks for sharing this, Jane. I know that Cami looks down with love on you, Chuck, and all of her brothers and sisters. Hers was a sweet if sometimes complex soul. I always enjoyed her company.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you Tracey. I know you loved her too, and that she knew you did. She wondered why people loved her…obviously, she did not see her own worth. Hope all is well with you!
LikeLike
Very sorry to hear about the loss of your very beautiful daughter. It’s sad indeed.
Your paintings are beautiful by the way. I hope you get some outlet through painting and being expressive and of course writing too.
Be well.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks you for commenting on my blog. It does mean a lot to me. We all have lost someone close to us, and are put in a place that makes us consider the eternal nature of things. And painting seems to have been a great solace to me. As I count the number of paintings I have done that have been in honor of Cami it has become obvious to me that Art and personal expression does have it’s own healing power.
LikeLike
Reblogged this on Eternal Oils ~ by Jane and commented:
Wow, it’s already been a year since I wrote this blog, I was swamped on Cami’s actual birthday, but I was mowing the lawn this morning (the morning after) when I saw the first little Resurrection Bulb coming up in her honor!
LikeLike